Thursday, May 19, 2016

Why do I blog if I struggle with anxiety?

Happy Thursday ladies!  And cheers to Friday only being one day away ;) 

I want to give you all a big thank you for your kind comments and emails yesterday.  At times, it's nice to know that we are not alone in our struggles and insecurities.  No matter how Pinterest perfect things may appear, at the end of the day, we are all human. 

I also want to answer a question that I received yesterday.  It may be one that a lot of you have so it's a question that I think that I should answer. 

Why do I blog and put myself out there if I am medicated and struggle with anxiety? 

- All my life I have let my anxiety take over, and since I was a child, I have literally quit almost everything that I started.  From sports, jobs, and even college, all because I let my anxiety and ADHD (I shared that here btw) take over.  I always felt overwhelmed and that I wasn't good enough so I would just quit.

- I have been blogging now for over seven years and there have been so many times that I have wanted to stop and just give it up.  I have laid in bed many nights crying and feeling like I just wasn't good enough to keep 'blogging' and that I didn't want to continue.  But I have always had Todd, my husband and my biggest fan, by my side cheering me on. 

Every time I feel this way he reminds me to tell myself that, "Yes, I am good enough, and regardless of my past, I am no longer a quitter!"  He also reminds me of all the things I love about blogging and the connections that I have made with many of you. 

- Why do I post outfit selfies and photos of myself if I am insecure? 
Haha...that's actually a really good question.  In a nutshell, here's my answer....

- Even though I am insecure about certain things on my body, I still love fashion and I love sharing what I am wearing.  Plus, it's real, it's what my body really looks like and there are some things that I like and some that I don't :)  Right along with interior design and party planning, fashion is my happy place.  I love to shop (always have) and I love finding new outfits to wear.  Along with all of that, I have also been fortunate enough to make this blog my career. 

If I let my anxiety and insecurities stop me from doing everything that made me anxious or uncomfortable, I probably wouldn't make it out of the bed in the mornings.  I honestly find that the more I take on the things that make me feel this way, the more I overcome them, and the better I feel about things. 

And this is one of my favorite quotes, so I'll end it with this :)