Thursday, April 30, 2015

Real Life.....true confessions

// When an idea pops in my head, I get zoned in and it consumes my mind.  It's hard for me to focus on other things until my idea, project, goal, or whatever it may be, is complete.  In some ways, I like this about myself because I get things done, but another part of me wishes I could let things go, and focus on other things while still completing my project/goal.  I hope that made sense? 

// I am pretty sure that I am the worst in the world at spelling.  It's always been my weakness.  I can remember in high school and college I loved writing papers.  I could dream up a story in a minute and I loved to write, but mercy...that red pen, it was all over the place.  Ha!  I can still remember my teachers saying, "I wish I could give you an A because your story was great, but your grammatical errors were horrible!"  I like to say it was because I was just zoned in on making the story good :) 

// I can already tell Taylor has my personality.  She is very strong willed, and does not like the word NO!  This makes my mom laugh, and she tells me it's payback!  Yeah, I gave my parents hell from the time I was two until I was about twenty!  My brother was the good child :) 

// I finally feel in control of my anxiety.  Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments, but for the most part, things are really good in that department.  I am not sure if it's my medication, or the fact that the older I get, the more I like and accept who I am.  I used to fear that in a crowd of people, I would say something silly or embarrassing, but I don't feel that way anymore.  And you know what, on most occasions, I usually do one out of the two, or both! 

// I am really, really proud of Todd.  I don't tell him this near enough, and I just assumes he knows it. I need to be better at telling him how much I love him, because without him I would be lost.  He may drive me nuts sometimes, and make me say ugly words, but he's my best friend in the entire world. 

// Speaking of friends, I get real defensive of my friends.  It actually makes me extremely mad, and upset, to see someone say something ugly or hurt their feelings.  I am the same way with my kids.  I can get real ugly, real fast, when you mess with the people I love.  That being said, when someone says something about me, I am usually pretty calm and I actually handle it a lot better without losing my cool.

// If I ever wake up in the middle of the night, it's really hard for me to go back to sleep.  My head starts spinning, and I find it hard to turn it off.  I also feel much more dramatic and emotional about things in the middle of the night.  Then, when the morning comes, whatever it may have been that I was stressing over, seems so small and silly.  Does this happen to anyone else?