Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Dirty Secret Part 2.................

So I have gone back and forth on if I was going to put it all out there and tell you guys about this! But I look at you guys like family and close friends, and if you know me in real life you know I am an open book. What you see is what you get. I just don't hold back, it's not my style ha! 

About three months ago Todd and I made the final, real decision that we were done having babies. We are both just so content with Taylor and Carson, and our lives just feel complete. It really was an easy decision and that's how I knew it was the right one.

So that leads me to tell you what is about to happen (y'all my arm pits are sweating as I type this). I am  getting a mini abdominoplasty. In plain English terms, this is a mini tummy tuck.

Standing up in my swimsuit I feel ok, but when I sit or lean over it's all down hill, literally. The doctor was actually in shock when I sat down and he saw the amount of loose skin I had. He immediately told me I was actually a candidate for a full tummy tuck, and he wasn't the first doctor to tell me this. I quickly explained I did not have 20 days to recover, nor did I care for a hip-to-hip scar, or my abs being repaired. So we nipped that in the bud and agreed on the mini. He explained it would be a lot better but not perfect. I am okay with that, nobody's got time for perfect ;) 

I know many of you remember my post on my Dirty Secret part one where I talked about my insecurities with my stretch marks. This surgery will also help with those, but again it won't take them away completely or be perfect! 

I really hope this doesn't come across to you guys as me being vain. In the end, I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I work really hard to be healthy and stay in shape, but this is just something I can't fix on my own. And if I am honest, I am really excited and totally terrified at the same time.

I go into surgery on Friday at 7:30 am, so if the blog seems a little off it's not me it's the pain killers ;) Haha I kid....kinda. 

When I stand up.

When I slightly bend over.

A full bend over. 

Now who's ready for breakfast ha!! In all seriousness I am pretty sure Todd has only seen me like this a hand full of times, so it took a lot for me to share these pictures. It makes me so insecure, but I wanted you guys all too see why I am having my surgery.