Thursday, August 16, 2012

Struggling........

That is the best word I can use to describe how I am feeling these days.

I have to just got to vent and be real with you ladies today.

I am feeling very insecure in a lot of ways........

My body is not what it used to be, and really I am okay with that. What I am not okay with is gaining 7 inches on my waist and feeling terrible in every outfit and picture I see myself in. I just feel very insecure and it's getting to me.

The pressure...... please tell me you all feel this. I feel pressure to keep the house clean, cook dinner, take care of the kids, be a good wife, and keep this little blog up.

Over the last few days I felt just plain sad and stressed. Sometimes I feel like I am just really not that good at anything. I am okay at most but just don't feel like I excel in any of it. I have some really talented lady friends and I am honestly so darn proud of them. It makes me happy to see them doing the things they love and being super amazing at it! But it also makes me think well I am just mediocre.

As a mom I always feel rushed. Maybe it just the season of life I am in with two little ones, but I don't like it. My head is always spinning and its hard to really relax and enjoy the moments with them. I am rushed every morning to get a post up on this blog ex(my terrible grammar). and have a hard time fitting it all in. When the evenings come I want to just unwind with Todd, or get in the bed because I know I will be waking up to feed the baby.

I promise this is not a pity me post and I know I have a great life. Lately I have just been struggling and needed to get this off my chest.

Moms and women please tell me you feel this way sometimes too. do you have a secret for me Or do I need to just go see a counselor asap!