Hello lovies and happy Tuesday!! 

I am so excited about this mini Amazon haul you guys!  Every single thing I ordered I ended up loving!!  I was so impressed with the quality on all of these items, and as always, with Amazon fashion the prices are amazing!! 

**Also, I received a lot of dm messages yesterday asking about my lip color, so I decided to link that for you guys right here. It's the perfect combination to give you a good neutral pink lip. 

Lipstick- Plum pop by Clinique 

Lipliner- Dior Pink Sky 

Lipgloss- Beautycounter Opal Moonstone 

Leopard Ruffle Dress with Pockets

You can never go wrong with a little leopard.  This dress is made out of a really nice thick cotton and I love that it also has pockets!  For sizing reference, the dress runs tts and I'm wearing a small. 

V-Neck Ballon Sleeve Blouse // Similar Grey Skinny Jeans // Leopard Flats

This blouse is such a good one.  It's lined so you can't see through it and it's perfect to wear now with jean shorts and then later with jeans in the fall.  For sizing reference, it runs tts and I'm wearing a small. 

Strapless Boho Maxi Dress // Sandals

I seriously love everything about this dress...the material, the fit, and it's tummy flattering in the middle.  For sizing reference, it runs tts and I'm wearing a small. 

Midi Polka Dot Dress

This is another adorable and super flattering midi dress.  It's hard to tell in the photo, but it has the cutest little ruffles around the neckline and arms.  For sizing reference, this dress runs tts and I'm a small. 

Geometric V-Neck Midi Dress

I've had my eye on this dress for a while and I can't believe it took me so long to order it.  It is SO cute on, not to mention, it's really comfortable and super flattering.  I was worried it would fit like a sack, but the tie waist gives it the perfect shape.  For sizing reference, this dress does run a little on the larger side so I would go down one size if between sizes (I'm wearing a small). 

  Cotton Stretch Yoga Tank //  Scalloped High Waist Leggings // Leopard Flats

Hoop Earrings // Watch 

Last, but not least are these AMAZING scalloped leggings!!  I am seriously ordering them in all four of the other colors. Added bonus, right now they are on sale!!  These leggings run tts, but because of my growing bump I went up to a medium. 

First off, I seriously cannot believe summer is over!  It truly felt like the fastest summer since Carson and Taylor have been born.  And I am still in complete denial that I have a fifth grader and a second grader!!  I hope and pray that the first day nervous gitters have already left them and that they have an amazing day! 

// I have been trying really hard to stay active during this pregnancy.  As most of you probably know, I don't exactly love to workout, but I do like the way it makes me feel mentally and the results it gives me physically.  That being said, I've been sticking with bike rides, light jogs, a few yoga classes, and lunges and squats around the house. 

These are a few of my favorite basic non-maternity workout pieces that I swear by.  These pieces are awesome and supportive not pregnant, but also work great going up a size with a growing bump and to wear after the baby is born. 

Built-In Bra Workout Tank // High Waist Naked Leggings ll // Vineyard Vines Cap

Open Tie Back Tank // Running Shorts // Nike Womens VTR

Yoga Running Tank // Naked High Waist Yoga Pants

// This is a picture of the tomato and burrata salad that I was raving about last week.  Since then, I haven't stopped dreaming about it so I'm planning on trying to recreate it at home this week!  I can't exactly remember what was on top of the tomatoes, but I'm thinking it was some sort of bread crumb so that's what I'm going to go with ;) 

// Us being goofballs before we headed in to see Angry Birds 2!  It was really cute and several parts had us all laughing our heads off. 

I feel like 90% of my clothes these days come from Amazon, but I just keep finding so many awesome fashion finds that have great quality with even better price tags!  I am planning on doing a little mini-Amazon haul for you guys tomorrow with a few more adorable dresses and one super cute blouse, so make sure you check in tomorrow if you guys are into amazon fashion like myself. 

What I wore to Church on Sunday

3/4 Sleeve Maxi Dress // Cotton Candy Hoop Earrings

Before I share this weeks bumpdate with you guys, I wanted to say thank you all so much for the kind dm messages and emails on yesterday's blogpost.  I know that my post may have confused a lot of you, and I honestly thought about not even posting it.  But through all of this, I've realized that the only way to really connect and to be your true self is to stop hiding behind the mask, and to just be honest and tell all your truth.  I hate that I can't just share all of it right now, but I want to be real with you guys as best I can and not just share the pretty things going on in our lives. 

Now with that being said, even with all of the painful and stressful things happening in our lives right now there are still SO many wonderful and amazing things happening as well!  I have to admit that right now my biggest challenge is to remind myself to stop ruminating over the past, and to live in the moment and enjoy all of the blessings that are currently happening in our lives. 

Luckily, I have this growing bump as a daily reminder of what a huge blessing we have coming!  We are all so excited about this new baby girl, and we can't wait until January!  Now we've just got to come up with a name and get her nursery started!! 

17 Week Bumpdate 

Button up Flowy Maxi Dress (only $34) // Similar Beaded Bracelet

Dress runs tts, and for reference, I'm wearing a small. 

Size of Baby : Pear 

Weight Gain : 2 pounds...strangely I haven't been overly hungry, and I get full really fast.

Gender : It's a GIRL!!!!! 

Maternity Clothes : Not yet!  I've just been living in my looser fitting dresses and maxi dresses!  I did just order this maxi and these scalloped leggings one size larger. 

Sleep : This week's sleep has been a little rough.  I've been waking up several times in the middle of night either having to potty or having a strange dream. 

Missing : I can't really think of anything.  Thankfully, my wine and cocktail cravings have pretty much stopped.  But I am looking forward to having a big glass of red wine with Todd when baby girl gets here ;) 

Cravings : This week's cravings have still been pretty healthy.  I have really been craving salads, and I had the most amazing burrata and tomato salad yesterday from The Workshop. 

Must Have Items : This wedge pillow, these prenatal gummies, and I just ordered this crib for baby girl's nursery! 

Hubby's Thoughts : Still so excited and so darn sweet!  He's been talking to her a lot, and she just wiggles and moves like crazy to the sound of his voice. 

Best Part of This Week : Feeling baby girl move!! 

So, I thought about starting this post off with a 'good morning and happy Thursday, friends' and then jumping into the excuse that I haven't posted all week because of how busy I've been with getting the kids to go back to school.  Well, for a lack of better words, that would just be total bullshit! 

This week has been hard as hell for me emotionally and I have struggled tremendously with trying to grasp and understand all the things that Todd and I have both remembered about our past together and things that have happened along the way. 

Now, let me back up and fill you guys in on exactly what I'm talking about so you're not out in left field.  I am sure most of you remember my post back in May where I filled you guys in on what all I was going through, and what I had truly thought was just a stimulant induced psychosis mixed with some really old repressed trauma.  While all of that was true, there was a lot more to my mental breakdown and psychosis than just the stimulants and the one traumatic incident that happened almost 19 years ago.  And when I say a lot more, I do mean a lot more, so much that there is no way for me to tell you guys our full story in just one blog post.  Heck, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able to tell you guys our entire story in 50 different blog posts.  Either way, Todd and I do plan on telling our full story soon in a book we are working on.  This is something we have wanted to do for months now, but we have been letting our emotions and fear hold us back, but after lots of prayer I know now this is one thing that Todd and I were called to do.  When I say that, I don't mean that I think this was our one and only calling in life by any means, but I do think it was meant to be part of our journey in this crazy thing called life. 

I am pretty sure I have a lot of you scratching your heads and thinking, "What in the world is Caycee talking about...oh my goodness, this girl has truly lost it.", but I promise you I haven't.  Believe me, through all of this Todd and I have both had to question our own sanity several times, and question if maybe we were both just having mental breakdowns, but just when we both felt like giving up and have thought we were really losing it, we've been given evidence / proof to confirm that we are indeed not crazy, and that these things we're both remembering did actually happen. 

I really really wish I could tell you guys more, and better explain in detail what all I'm talking about, but at this time I am just not able to for many reasons. 

Before I sign off today, I do want to share a little about gaslighting with you.  Gaslighting is something that was done to Todd almost all of his life and then it was done to us both after we got married.  It's a real thing, and through all of this, I am finding out that it happens to people all the time...and nine times out of ten, the person that it's happening to doesn't even realize it's happening. My hopes in sharing these signs to look out for, is that if this is happening to you or someone you love, that you realize you're not going crazy and that the person gaslighting you is the one with the mental issues.

And last, because I do not want to end this post on a negative note, I wanted to tell you that while Todd and I are working on our book, I am still planning on keeping this little blog going with our daily life, fashion, organization, mental health, recipes, and of course, updates on my pregnancy and all things baby that we're planning for this sweet baby GIRL!! 

Good morning friends and cheers to FRIDAY!!!! 

// I will be running around like a chicken with my head cutoff today!  I have pretty much waited to the last minute to do everything for our gender reveal party, so I'm planning on having a cup of coffee and a Coke today ;)  Speaking of our gender reveal party, here are a few fun things I ordered for the celebration.  I'll be sharing things as I set up today and tomorrow on Instastories, so check it out if party planning is your thing. 

Donut Wall

Is this not the cutest thing ever,!?  And you could do this for all kind of parties and celebrations!  I am off today to see if I can find somewhere that has pink and blue donuts...if all else fails, I guess I can just ice them myself. 

Pink, Blue, and Gold Cups and and Napkins

The gold plates are so pretty in this set, and I love that it has the mix of three colors I am using for the party. 

Gold Dot Goodie Bags

I am doing a little mini candy buffet for the kiddos and I ordered these adorable little gold dot bags to put their candy in! 

Here are a few of my 'What I Wore' looks this week...nothing too fancy, but I thought I would share anyway! 

Short Sleeve V-Neck Button Down Tee // Mavi Ripped Boyfriend Jeans  

Pink Bracelet // Vince Darlington Flat

The kiddos and I hit the pool earlier this week, and I ended up washing and drying one of my favorite tunic dresses and it's my new favorite pool cover-up!  Seriously though, this tunic dress is such a good one, just make sure you hang it to dry instead of tossing it in the dryer. 

Tunic Flowy Mini Dress // Pink Headband // TB Miller Sandal

// I had a lunch date with two of my girlfriends this week at Five Loaves Cafe.  It is truly my favorite lunch spot ever and I always get the same thing.  I tell myself every time I'm going that I'm going to try something new, but I just can't ever do it.  If any of you guys ever go, you have to get the roasted turkey on a croissant FLC caesar. 

// Along with baking cookies, making appetizers, and putting up party decor tonight, I also decided to make this honey garlic chicken for dinner.  It looks so good and the recipe seems pretty darn easy, so I'll report back this evening on stories with how it turns out. 

Honey Garlic Chicken