Thursday, May 19, 2016

Why do I blog if I struggle with anxiety?

Happy Thursday ladies!  And cheers to Friday only being one day away ;) 

I want to give you all a big thank you for your kind comments and emails yesterday.  At times, it's nice to know that we are not alone in our struggles and insecurities.  No matter how Pinterest perfect things may appear, at the end of the day, we are all human. 

I also want to answer a question that I received yesterday.  It may be one that a lot of you have so it's a question that I think that I should answer. 

Why do I blog and put myself out there if I am medicated and struggle with anxiety? 

- All my life I have let my anxiety take over, and since I was a child, I have literally quit almost everything that I started.  From sports, jobs, and even college, all because I let my anxiety and ADHD (I shared that here btw) take over.  I always felt overwhelmed and that I wasn't good enough so I would just quit.

- I have been blogging now for over seven years and there have been so many times that I have wanted to stop and just give it up.  I have laid in bed many nights crying and feeling like I just wasn't good enough to keep 'blogging' and that I didn't want to continue.  But I have always had Todd, my husband and my biggest fan, by my side cheering me on. 

Every time I feel this way he reminds me to tell myself that, "Yes, I am good enough, and regardless of my past, I am no longer a quitter!"  He also reminds me of all the things I love about blogging and the connections that I have made with many of you. 

- Why do I post outfit selfies and photos of myself if I am insecure? 
Haha...that's actually a really good question.  In a nutshell, here's my answer....

- Even though I am insecure about certain things on my body, I still love fashion and I love sharing what I am wearing.  Plus, it's real, it's what my body really looks like and there are some things that I like and some that I don't :)  Right along with interior design and party planning, fashion is my happy place.  I love to shop (always have) and I love finding new outfits to wear.  Along with all of that, I have also been fortunate enough to make this blog my career. 

If I let my anxiety and insecurities stop me from doing everything that made me anxious or uncomfortable, I probably wouldn't make it out of the bed in the mornings.  I honestly find that the more I take on the things that make me feel this way, the more I overcome them, and the better I feel about things. 

And this is one of my favorite quotes, so I'll end it with this :) 





13 comments:

  1. I love your BLOG!! I wish you did more family and lifestyle topics but I'm old so go figure. I enjoy your looking at your fashion suggestions and your family. You have nothing to feel anxious about, we are all imperfectly perfect. You are precious and I am glad you did not give up on your BLOG!! Love You!!

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    1. Aww Beth your comments always make me smile :) Love you back girl!

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  2. You go girl! I think as we get older we learn more about ourselves and in turn care a little less about outside perceptions!

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    1. Julie I couldn't agree more!! I swear with each year that passes I learn more and more about myself and like you said could care less what others "think" they know or their opinions of me! Xoxo

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  3. God for you! You are an awesome blogger! And I have tremendous respect for you and tackling your fears and anxiety!!!

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    1. I adore you so much girl, and thank you for the sweet words! Xoxo

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  4. Hey girl! I just read your post from yesterday and today and I love you for who you are. When I met you recently you were just as pretty, genuine and sweet as I knew you would be from reading your blog the past few years. We all struggle with something and we all imperfect humans who are children of a perfect father! He loves us no matter what. You are one brave, beautiful woman and I adore your honesty and your blog! People who are critical of others well they just need some prayer and lots of grace and they don't define anyone. ๐Ÿ’—☺️

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    1. Oh Kristen I feel the same exact way about you, and I LoVEd meeting you! You were so sweet and so precious! Thank you for your kinds words girl!

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  5. Firstly, your body is banging. You inspire me to get my butt back in shape once my little babe comes in just 7 weeks (eek!!). Secondly, I've always thought you exude kindness through just your pictures and writing on your blog. It's so clear you are one of the sweetest, most kind-hearted bloggers out there. I'm glad you have your support system to keep you blogging because I just love reading and following your life. :)

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    1. Haha......girl you crack me up, and I have no doubt you are going to bounce right back!!! And how do you only have 7 weeks left?!? And thank you girl for saying those sweet words! Xoxo

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  6. Caycee,

    Your fashion, interior design and party planning post are relatable because they are down to earth with nothing super-expensive, and always being pretty-not-perfect. You appear to have fun with it all and not take it all too seriously. Best of all, it gives us a view to you! Now, with you giving us a glimpse of your deeper struggles, it makes you even more approachable - and it's what keeps me coming back.

    Despite - and likely because of - all your "failures and doubts", I admire you, your humour, and the things you do and keep. Frankly, your imperfections make you such an inspiration! xo

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  7. You are awesome Caycee!! I met you last summer at Freshfields Village and you are beautiful on the inside and the outside! You keep blogging girl! Your blog gives me wonderful inspiration and you keep it real. And I love that!

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  8. And this is why we have the utmost respect for you. You are an amazing woman for answering these questions, engaging with the fears and failures and all while being a fantastic woman, wife,mom, friend and blogger x

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