Sunday, July 18, 2010

Perfecton, Planning, and Anxiety

This pretty much sums up my brain at all times. I so badly struggle with perfection, obsessive planning, and anxiety. This may make some of you laugh, but I am being dead serious. most days is does not get to me, but its when things don't go as planned or go as fast as I would like them the anxiety kicks in. Its little things that i shouldn't even worry about, but I do! Let me give you some examples so you can follow..... Todds office/garage makeover. we are planning to turn our detached garage into Todds new office. There is a lot of work that will have to be done to get this ready, and I don't want to half a** it if you know what I mean! We have to get and AC unit in there, paint walls and floors, hang curtains, and all that great jazz :) Well I am freaking out and we are not even starting this until next summer! Next summer is our plan to start on baby number 2, and Todd as to be out of the house before i am making any more babies reason 1) I am not giving up our guest room, so the baby needs his office ha! reason 2 two babies in the house and my husband trying to make a living for our family.... not happening :) Carson already knows where "daddy works" and he knows how to distract daddy :) Any who my point is I cant stop thinking about this and its driving me crazy :) Also on the obsessive planning I already have my unborn childs nursery decorated completely in my head (we are not going to find out the sex next time so it will be all white awe Love!) Carsons second birthday almost done! The perfecting eeww..... I don't think you guys even want me to go there, trust me its bad! I want everything just the way I want it all the time especially my house!See what I mean my brain never stops I feel like can never relax and just let it all go!!! Sorry for the rambling, I would love any advice you guys have if any???

4 comments:

  1. I'm not sure how I came across your blog...but you are so funny b/c I am totally Type A personality too--such a planner w/ major anxiety. Right now I am trying to plan for my son's 'big boy room'. Have you checked out Rate My Space on the HGTV website?? You can choose a room and then click on highest ratings. Good luck!!

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  2. Oh gosh I relate, my sons party was just a week or so ago and I STRESSED big time with the details, down to stamping ribbons with his monogram for the plastic-ware.. I started planning his party at about 6 months and dont even want to know what I spent...that being said Im taking a break for birthday #2 and just doing a small family party. I have a few showers to host but Im so worn out from the 1st birthday that Im just taking a break. So maybe just take a few months off from planning, it always comes together anyways, right? :)

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  3. It sounds like you think like I do. I plan ahead and stress ahead! Good luck praying for you guys!

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  4. Girl, I'm not sure if it makes you feel any better but I have the same disease :) It really can take a toll on you, I know. . . I wish I had advice but I'm as bad as they come! Maybe that's why we work so well together.

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